Well we had a good anniversary, Amy & I have been married for 10 years now & I am looking forward to the next 10 years. We tried to find her a ring for her anniversary gift but every ring was in size 7 & she wears a size 8 1/2 & she didn't want to have to send them off to be sized so she didn't get one. However she is looking around & if she finds one she likes we will get it for her.
I plan on getting her a ring or something really nice this Christmas, the last Christmas' we always had to worry about getting the boys things for the holiday we never worried about getting us anything.
Well this Christmas if all goes the way we hope it goes (knock on wood, for good luck) I will be able to get her something that she wont know about or at least have her something under the tree to unwrap.
Her Birthday is in June & for her Birthday she wants to go see Wall E that comes out June the 27th, so I am going to take her & the boys to see it for her Birthday gift.
When she first started to work I felt bad, I felt guilty. There she was working & her I was setting at home collecting a disability check. I tried to tell myself I earned it by paying into the system for all those years I worked but I still felt bad.
Anyway I have learned over the years to except the fact that with my mental & physical limitations I shouldn't feel guilty about not working & that Amy likes her job.
Which I am glad she likes her job, it helps me not to feel as bad as I first did when she started. If she came home today & said she was going to quit work that would be ok, we would be able to pay the bills & still have a little left over for some extra stuff.
However with her working part time it does give us extra money to do things with & the tax return at the end of the year comes in handy. Plus she says she likes getting out of the house & being around "normal" people, lol.
She has to work 9-6 today but then she is off the next three & half days so I will get to spend sometime with her then. The boys have two more days of school left, they go Monday & Tuesday then they start their summer vacation. We hope to take the boys to the beach this summer, Amy & me haven't ever been so it will be a new adventure for all of us. We just not sure when we will go, maybe in late June or mid July but we really do want to go.
We are going to rent a van for three days & get a motel room on the beach & stay for three days & two nights. There is an amusement park at the beach we are going to take the boys to & let them have the time of their life there. We are going to get all three of them a disposable camera so they can take pictures of whatever they want to. Then Amy & I are going to have one ourselves so we will make sure to get some pictures that we can make out, lol.
I am doing alright, you know I mentioned I was in the hospital a few months back for a few days because I had a small break down. While I was in there they put me on Risperdal 1mg to take in the morning to go with the Risperdal 3mg I take at bed time. It seems to have helped, I haven't burned myself anymore & the thoughts of suicide have eased up, I have been doing alright. The burn has healed up but it has left a mark on me, more of a mark that I thought it would, but I did it to myself & I guess it will be a constant reminder of my illness & how bad it can get sometimes.
I have mentioned that I have been going over to my grandmothers & helping getting her up out of bed & then going back over to put her in bed. Well my mom was able to get a lift approved by the doctor so that way I wont have to go over as often. I will still go over from time to time to help with her so my mom can have some days off.
I have not minded going over & helping but I will say not having to go over every day will be nice, like today I don't have to go over & I plan on setting on my butt & not going or doing anything. Anyway my mom got the lift to help with her being able to lift her mom from the bed to the chair & so I wouldn't have to come over all the time.
She said & that way if I have to go back into the hospital again she will have a way to get mammaw up & down. Last time she had to get one of her friends, Jan, to come over & help. The only bad thing about that was my mom is on disability for back & knees & Jan is on disability for her back & other problems she has. My mom laughs sometimes & says it is the blind leading the blind.
Anyway I hope I don't have to go back into the hospital but I know the odds aren't in my favor, esp since I have been in there once already. It's not that the hospital was bad, it just I didn't like being away from my family. Which it is a short stay hospital the most you can stay is 7 days & I know it is better to be in there for a few days & to get your medicine adjusted than to do something stupid & hurt yourself really bad or worse die.
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